There has been something at work here, something beyond me that I have to acknowledge. Too many “coincidences” – which I actually refer to as a “godwink” (def’n: an event or personal experience, often identified as coincidence, so astonishing that it is seen as a sign of divine intervention).
Example: I chose August 31st to be the end date of the job I’ve been at for 14 years – A homework assignment given to me by my Life Coach who I had hired back in March. (The story of how she came to me is another “godwink” that I will share later).
As I neared the end of July, I was hedging. I was going to back out. The timing wasn’t right. Nothing was in place. But at the same time, I knew I couldn’t back out because I was so, so miserable there. I was awful too. I became this mean, curt, anti-social person – Very opposite from this nurturing, maternal, calm yoga person that I embody when I am practicing the healing arts – doing the stuff that I love.
During that session, she walked me through this type of meditation where I realized what was holding me back. It was an extremely simple, yet, profound realization.
What was holding me back was the amount of information I had that no one else knew. In 14 years, one accumulates a lot of information – processes, contacts, client preferences, technical fixes, software settings, etc.
My next homework assignment was to make a list of all the information that I, and only I knew, and share it with someone or some people. Offload the information.
I started to see light at the end of the tunnel. I could actually breathe better because I felt as though a huge weight had been lifted off of me.
So, keeping on-track, she asked me to write my resignation letter. Before we ended our session, we decided on when I would be submitting it. We decided it would be August 1st to allow for four weeks notice (a reasonable amount of time for someone in my position, vs. the standard two weeks).
But, a week before the end of July, something inside me snapped. It was something so small, like an email was forwarded to me that should have gone to someone else. And I could have easily just forwarded it over to the true recipient, like I’ve done in the past, and gotten on with my day. But, that one irked for some reason.
And so, I opened up that resignation letter, changed the date to four weeks from that day and pressed PRINT.
My last day became August 18th.
So, this is where the godwink comes in. Today, Monday, August 21st, 2017 is the first work day of my new work life. Today, happens to be the New Moon – a time for new beginnings and powerful manifestations. The solar eclipse amplifies all these things. Astrologically speaking, in my chart, I was told “you (aquarius) will be forced into action whether you’re ready or not.” And that is exactly what happened. There was cosmic, divine push that propelled me into the direction I needed to go.
I am in awe and very grateful. I begin this journey knowing that something or someone is looking after me. And even though I haven’t worked out all the details, I know that I have a direction with gifts and abilities to help me along. Wish me luck.